Why me?

I think most of us ask this question at least a few times in life.
And for someone like me… maybe a million times.

It’s not that I’m completely unhappy or ungrateful.
To some extent, I am content.

But when I see myself struggling even for the most basic things,
this question always comes back -
Why me?

I look around, and it feels like some people don’t even have to try for the things I’m fighting so hard for.

I don’t want to sound jealous but sometimes i just can’t stop feeling that way.
And yes, I know - we never truly know what someone else is going through.
I remind myself of that all the time.

But I’m also talking about people I’ve known for years,
whose journeys I’ve seen closely.

And somehow, it still hurts.

It makes you question everything -
that even when you’re honest, even when you’re trying,
life can still feel… unfair.

Career, relationships, health —
it feels like in every aspect,
some people have to go above and beyond
just to reach what others get easily.

Sometimes it gets so overwhelming,
you just want to scream loudly and cry in front of God?
Why me?

And then one day, I realized…
maybe the question itself is wrong.

Instead of asking “Why me?”
what if I ask —
“What am I going to do about it?”

And that small shift… changed something.

Not everything.
Not instantly.

It still hurts sometimes.
I still struggle.

But now, I try to focus on moving forward,
instead of being stuck in that question.

Maybe it’s okay to have phases like this.
Maybe it’s okay to not have everything figured out.

And maybe, slowly…
things will fall into place.

To anyone reading this —
you are more than enough.
And you will get through this 🤍